Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Stop reading now if you don't want the emotional and graphic details of this wonderfully difficult process!  All men should probably stop reading, however I doubt many men even clicked the link to this blog!  :) 
Win and I finally decided it was time to begin our family just over a year and a half ago.  We thought it might take a few tries, but we had no idea the journey we had in front of us.  I decided to write this blog to let others know that they aren't alone in the battle of infertility.  I had no idea of the struggles everyday people go through to get pregnant.  Seemed to me like everyone just blinked and was popping out children.  This was not the case for us.  Many would say that a year and a half isn't that long to be trying, but let me tell you... after 6 months of failed attempts, I was knocking on my doctor's door, asking for help.  We were ready... and tired of the disappointment each month brought.  We started with a few tests and everything came back clear... there was no reason we hadn't gotten pregnant.  So we started Clomid and even tried an IUI.  I'll let you google that.  Multiple failed attempts.  Eventually we were advised to head to an infertility specialist (Dr. Rinku Mehta, whom I love).  We started a new med. called Femara and tried another IUI... More failed attempts.  Multiple times throughout our first year of trying I would start early which concerned me because like all women, I knew my body, and knew this wasn't right.  Dr. Mehta agreed to look into possible causes... and when we did, we found a polyp in my uterus which causes a "hostile" uterus... No egg would want to implant in a hostile environment, so we scheduled surgery.  With everything back in good condition we just knew we would now get pregnant... Unfortunately we were not successful, yet again.  So now we moved on to hormone injections... Yep shots of Folistim in the tummy.  Luckily I have an amazing mother and husband who gave me my shots nightly.  We followed this up with a trigger shot of Ovidrel and another IUI.  Month one of this treatment concoction was June, and boy were we surprised by the results.  My ovaries overstimulated and I had 9 mature follicles.  Yep you heard me, one more than Octomom!  This was the worse day by far of the entire process because I was advised by the on-call doctor (Dr. Mehta was on vacation) to take the morning after pill.  Well that didn't go over well for me... A big shout out to my mom, win, and my best friends Ginia, Sarah, and Stephanie who listened to me cry over this mess.  Throughout this whole process Win and I trusted in the fact that this was not our plan... its God's plan.. and once again he was in control... No babies that month, praise God because 9 is just too many!!!  The next month I had cysts and therefore had to take a month off.  August came around and we opted to try the same routine again, this time a lower dose of meds.  Well it worked... but only to find out that I would miscarry very early.  So we tried once again in September.  Win and I had already talked and this was our final attempt before closing shop until summer when we would give IVF a try...  Well September was our lucky month... It finally worked, for real this time.  My numbers doubled appropriately, we got to hear a precious heartbeat at 6 wks and 3 days and now at 12 wks we couldn't be happier!  Some of you may wonder why I took the time to air all of our struggles on the internet... and this is why.... I had no idea that so many people I knew were going through or had been through the same thing.  Infertility is an ugly word that plagues many couples, no one wants to talk about it... but I don't want anyone I know to feel like they have no where to turn.  My first bit of advice, give it all over to God.  He is an awesome God, and although we may not know the plans he has for us, he indeed has a plan.  I also want to thank my forever friends and family who walked this walk with me and Win, day in and day out, every month for almost 2 years.  If you need me, let me know, I would love to share my journey, in detail (this was an overview), with anyone who needs to hear that they aren't alone!  And if you are struggling with infertility and aren't quite ready to talk about it... just keep trying and trust in God's plan for you!  God Bless! 

Stop reading now if you don't want the emotional and graphic details of this wonderfully difficult process!  All men should probably sto...